By: CiceroSeesZero
I dread stepping into the train today. Last week I decided to visit my parents on the north side of the city and now I have to go back campus, south of the city. I mean, really south. Far end of the south. Worst still, my mp3 player just ran out of juice and I'm running out of patience dealing with the delays and the crowd.
My mother just had to accompany me to the train station just to make sure I reach here safely. What annoys me is that she takes so much time doing it and I don't think a short trip to the train station requires me to bring an adult, let alone my mother. Because of that whole commotion, the earlier train, which is the least crowded one for the whole day, I missed. I almost raised my voice today but I didn't. The silent treatment was far more energy-saving.
So the train came, eventually. I'll try to look at this positively. At least it's clean. Thank goodness this is the last station, so everyone that was in the train when it came had to vacate their seats. I like empty trains. However, it was a long stretch of the imagination to think that it would remain that way for long. The northern side train stations are usually the ones that are most compact with people, but the train was not full. Not yet, at least.
So I stepped inside. I immediately looked for a seat at the far corner. Why? I don't intend to sound rude but usually people are more compelled to give up their seats to the less fortunate when they are in front. It'll be a tad bit of a fuss for somebody in the far corner to give up their seat, so it'll be understandable if somebody in the far corner did not stand up and say to an old lady, "Madam, I insist that you sit. I'll be fine.." because it's just cruel to see an old lady walk to the far end of the corner in a crowded train.
I got my seat. perfect. at the far corner, right under the air-conditioning. I looked around, there was only three people on my row. a snazzy looking businessman, a cop who has just finished the graveyard shift, I reckon, and a little bairn of somebody with a tennis bag hanging from his left shoulder.
The train started to fight inertia and moved forward. I looked at the child and he was anxiously waiting for the train to stop. I knew he wished the train would go faster. He gripped his bag and looked at the train map above. He did look around and saw me glimpsing at him. I looked away.
"Next station, President's Stadium"
A sweet voice from the interkom told us where we were at.
"Coach Henry is going to be really mad. I'm late, I'm late, I'm late." The kid exclaimed.
The little boy then stood up even before the doors slid open. He was all fidgety, and the tired policeman carved a simper as he looked closely at the kid. The doors opened and the policeman turned his attention to the window. He slouched a bit and exhaled loudly as if to get attention.
The businessman was a young fellow, at worst maybe he was just reaching his early thirties. It was just seven thirty, but now he was more fidgety than the little kid. He kept looking at his expensive Pull and Bear. His briefcase was compact. Maybe he has some big meeting today. I'm puzzled as to his discomfort, it was too early in the morning for any office to be in operation. I noticed a slight tear on both his shoes.
I thought to myself, "What a pompous young man. Still busy rising up in the corporation, bought an extremely expensive watch just to impress his fellow colleagues. Not like he could really afford it. He can't even repair his shoes."
"Next station, Business Square" My thoughts were interrupted.
The businessman tapped his feet, increased the frequency as the train got nearer to the station. The train stopped and in a cool manner, the businessman exited the train. It was apparent that his cool manner was only going to deteriorate and his pace will soon pick up.
It was just me and the policeman on the steel bench-like structure. The train was filling up but strangely only a few decided to occupy the train segment I was in. I notice the policeman trying to position himself closer to me.
"Hey good morning. An undergrad eh?"
I answered truthfully. The last time I lied to a cop, it got me scolded by my father at 3am at the police station. Besides, there was nothing to lie about here.
"Err, sir, yes sir."
"Where do you go to? the course you're taking?"
He had a calming voice for an old policeman. I pretty much eased into the conversation.
"Southstar University sir.. It's my second year as a literature student"
"Wow, that's a long way to go. Both the course and the journey, I mean."
The policeman was clearly tired. he kept yawning under his hand while he talked to me. I didn't wanna intrude on his sleep but he was spirited to talk to me. So I guess I'll just entertain him until he gives up himself.
"So, sir.. fine weather we're having?"
"Quite. But I can't really enjoy it now, I just got out of a 12-hour graveyard shift lad."
"Why don't you sleep? I'll wake you up when you reach where you are going.. It wouldn't be a problem."
"I can't. I'm on duty here, railway security.. Two trips to end north and two trips to end south."
No wonder he's tired. I asked him as to why the struggle. He explained that his wife just gave birth to twins, on top of his 4 other little children and he's financially helping his younger brother for his wedding next month.
"Next station, Senses District"
I was too busy chatting with the officer until it skipped my attention that it's been three stations since the Business Square.
I saw a couple walking in with several bags, most of them are in the hands of the guy.
"Look at that. A happy couple. Branded goods in hand, a more than healthy wallet. One day they are gonna regret buying all those handbags and shoes."
"With all due respect sir, what if they really could afford it? what if they were saving specifically for those lavish accessories?"
"Nobody saves to spend like that. and you never really have enough money. We all have the responsibility for other people. You see, you only wear a pair of shoe at a time. Some people still walk around barefoot, stepping on scorpions and landmines"
My conversation got more engaging, more intense. Oddly, he doesn't like a policeman now and weirder still, his voice got more familiar, like I knew but can't really point out. I kept on thinking, and kept on talking.
A minute passed and the next station we were at, a mother of three little children came and sat in front of us. The two brothers of the same mother were lively. Maybe too lively for some taste. they were wrestling each other while the mother was holding their little sister tight in her arms, trying to distract the baby from the noise her brothers are making.
"My mother had it worst. I grew up with eight siblings, me being the fourth, I don't get as much attention as I liked but when you realise that they will always be that net when you decide to jump a cliff because all of your friends are doing it, attention is just something physical."
"Hmm.."
"I hate it when I see teenagers blaming lack of parental attention for their immoral behaviors. My mother died when I was 14. I'm doing okay."
I didn't know what to say to that. Made sense, considering what happened with me and my mother earlier today. My heart felt a bit sore, I only had three siblings and everything a teenager could wish for. Education, enough money, two living breathing ridiculously loving parents...
I looked at the mother's eyes. full of care, engulfed with fatigue. There's no panacea for the energy given up raising a child. Mainly because it's not a disease or discomfort.
"It's after you are fully grown, fully nourished, fully showered with care and love it becomes a bane for them. For most of them, at least. You forget them, you leave them."
Did he know what I was thinking? That statement was almost like a continuation of my thoughts. We both continued to converse, mostly about petty things but he was so passionate talking about our country. I'll never forget the movements of his thick eyebrows while he talks. It sort of jiggles. It's very distinctive.
The train got more crowded.
"Son, you remember the businessman just now? He's a nice person, six years practicing as a lawyer in a disgraceful firm. His watch was a gift from his company, but in turn his company made him a corporate slave, doing every task of the executives without the pay. Not worth the watch. I talked to him just now before we boarded"
"Next station, Cicero Complex"
"Okay, here's my stop. And yeah, you were supposed to exit the train six stations ago to transfer to the train heading south to Southstar."
He took his hat and took off, leaving me with the distraught feeling of stupidity. So I took a ride backwards in six stations. What a waste. Now I have accompaniment to my ideas, so I kept it myself, keeping quiet all the way back, observing people and asking myself "Why am I here today? a lot of these people make more significance to the world than I do."
I then called my mother to apologize about what happened this morning, even though she was befuddled why I was doing it.
I got down the station when it reached my destination. I looked up at a television screen they have installed as a distraction to the lateness of their trains, there was our vice president of the country making a passionate speech in front of a crowd of thousands. At the end of the speech, they were cheering awfully loudly.
Now I know why those eyebrows were familiar.

